Help My Unbelief!

When things become so overwhelming, and we can’t make sense of it is when it seems like we begin to lose it. A problem here, a problem there, and it’s  all happening at once. It just becomes a down hill spiral, and we’re  just going through the motions. We feel like we’re  at our widths ends, and one more thing is going to be it. But just remember when those times come, close your eyes and say “Lord, help my unbelief.” I don’t see how this will get better, and I’m tired, but LORD, HELP MY UNBELIEF!

When there’s not a way in the world that WE see these issues getting better say, “Lord, help my unbelief.”

Lord, I pray for whoever is reading this. Help their unbelief. Give them Your unexplainable peace. When their heart is overwhelmed, lead them to that rock that is higher than them (Psalms 61:2). Guide them, strengthen them, and heal them so they are equipt to handle the things they face, knowing they are not alone. For you are a present help in a time of need. Amen.


But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.

1 Peter 2:9

It’s amazing how you’re reminded of God’s favor on you when you’re a kid, and how he uses the most simple things to give you an insight. My mind goes back to P.E in elementary school. There use to be this group of girls, ran by my own cousin, who use to walk their laps instead of running them. No big deal, right? WRONG! Apparently, it was this thing that if you didn’t walk with them you couldn’t be apart of the crew anymore. With my many insecurities, I needed to be among other people to detract the attention off of me.

Well, this one particular day I just really wanted to finish laps and make a dash for the basketball court, so I suggested that we go quick and get out laps out of the way. As time progressed and I got uneasy, my cousin stop everybody and said, “Ashley, if you want to go and get all sweaty that’s your business, but if you leave us you can’t come back to this group anymore.” (That was a big threat in elementary). After weighting my options I figured playing ball was much more worth it so I shrugged, said “Bye!” and I left them in the dust as I ran off like an Olympic track star. What was so amazing was after I ran off, I didn’t even think about the fact that I needed them to make me feel like something. I just wanted to do something different. From that day on, I never had a fear to stand out again.

I really didn’t don on this again until 2 years ago when I was trying to figure out who I was in Christ and whether or not I was even important. When this came back to my remembrance, I heard God speak and say, “I have called you to be different, and that’s okay.” I believe that if we truly trust God and just stand out from the crowd, we’ll be able to fully see Him manifest in our lives. Because everybody is not meant to go where we’re called to go, neither do some want to. Some people are content with where they are. (Walking their laps.) Blending in with the crowd only makes people over look that group.

Believe it or not, sometimes we look for something different. Who wants to go to same restaurant ALL THE TIME? who wants to do the same thing ALL THE TIME? I love how my jobs always requires flexibility and different things. The kids I work with don’t always want to do the crafts or sports. Sometimes they like when a new game introduced. God wants more of us, He wants us to stand out to be a light for someone else. You can’t find light covered up and hidden. Light doesn’t blend it, it shines for everyone to see. Let yourself shine! Go run those laps!


Chosen Beauty

I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.

-Psalm 139:14

I think one of the hardest things for me growing up was not that I felt that I was ugly or felt ugly, because I was told all the time that I was beautiful by many people that I knew, but it was that I could not understand my beauty. I always compared it to the stereotypical definition of beauty–society’s beauty and according to their standards, NOBODY was eligible to be considered “beautiful.” It was not until I got saved in my teen years that I learned that my beauty could not be defined by society.

In Psalms 139:14, the psalmist is excited and is praising God about the fact that he was “fearfully” and “Wonderfully” made. In the Hebrew translation of the Bible, the word “fearfully” means with great reverence, heart-felt interest and respect. This does not mean that you should carry a fear of THE WORLD, but rather you have a healthy respect for GOD. The word “wonderfully” means UNIQUE, SET APART, MARVELOUS.” Detailed characteristics, time and care went into the creation of you. Before you were even formed in your mom’s belly, God already knew everything about you (Jeremiah 1:5)  and the very details of your heart.

It’s difficult for children of God to try to fit themselves into what the world considers to be beautiful because your beauty is so rich and UNIQUE that you don’t even fit into a category! There is already enough of everybody else, but their is ONLY ONE YOU!

– W.A.V.E